I know the dark calls to you sometimes

I know the dark calls to you sometimes
That you turn your face from the light
I know you walk down roads you know you shouldn’t
walk into places your heart is gently urging you not to
I know you see your habits and long to change them
I know you are tired of your worn-out ways of being
tired of relieving patterns and choosing painful choices
I know you feel hollow at times
like life is escaping you
dancing in front of you but out of your reach somehow
I know it hurts to live in the disconnect between what you are currently experiencing and what you know exists outside of you
beautifully, without effort
I know how much It hurts to live there
in the divide between what you feel you are and what you wish you could be
I know you have tasted the sun on your skin
and inhaled with complete trust
and that you too at times find it hard to move without knowing what lies next
that at times life feels paralyzing
I know you try so hard to control your life that you forget to breathe sometimes
that you live in the shallow end
that you forget to go deep
breath deep
that you forget to meet yourself in the quiet and breath yourself full again
that you forget there is a well of abundance and trust within you
that you forget to go there for fear of losing control
I know there are places within yourself that you do not love
the parts you try to wrestle away
I know they are there within you they steal away your joy
I know you visit them from time to time hoping they have somehow disappeared
I know you travel between internal peace and trust and terror and fear
I know you long to live more in bliss
where you know you are intended to live
I know you can feel it vibrating in your cells when you arrive there
In the grace of bliss
that this is where you belong
or when you arrive there you are so alive it is as if everything around you is telling you yes you are home
but I know too that shadows come and pull at your feet
that they come sometimes while you are asleep
that they drag you down to the familiar landscape of fear and doubt
I know you journey there too from time to time
wondering if the light will ever return
or you fear you will never outlive this dance between these two worlds
I know you can see how much you have grown
that you are learning to taste heaven
that you swear sometimes you could grow wings
that you believe life is in your favour
that you are rising above your dark shadows
that you are becoming free
I know you live there in the tear between these two worlds
between the dark and the light
between trust and distrust
between love and hatred
between acceptance and resistance
between control and faith
between sun-soaked mornings and dark forests
you are human my dear one
you are human
you are allowed to be in both ways
you are allowed
you are not wrong
you are not damaged
you are not failing
because you still get lost in dark rivers
you are still human
be gentle when doubt comes
when fear chokes
when control debilitates
when loneliness blinds you
spend special care to love yourself in these dark corridors of your being
spend special care to bring love to your own self
to take gentle care to your vulnerability when you are here
when you arrive in the dark know you are being offered the chance to grow your own internal garden of love
that the dark offers you a chance to love all of the places never dared
all of the places that challenge you
all of the places you curse
the dark offers restoration of love to your entire being
no matter what land you stand-in
when you are down
you deserve more love
not less
where we deprive ourselves of love
is where we need it most
when the dark comes tell it what it longs so deeply wants to hear
that you are loved
that you are loved in all of your shadow and in all of your light
that you are loved in all of your various stages
moments of fear or sadness can not be cured or defeated
they can only be transformed by learning to love
and support yourself when they arrive
it will come again
and again
giving you the opportunity to cultivate your own inner garden of love
and with time and practice
it will release
it will visit less
t will come not for days but instead only for moments
it will come from time to time to love yourself more
the dark
it serves you
you are learning to restore the love you lost
the love you forgot
the love you are comprised of
when the light comes
as it always does
even if found only for a moment on the crest of a wave
a southern breeze on a bead of dew
know its bringing you its message of love
that you – without any effort on your part
are being blessed
you are being showered
that the universe is a kind and loving one
that even in the great darkness that visits you
you are being taught how to love
close your eyes now
feel the rise and fall of your chest
feel the darkness behind your lids
see here in this place
there is also great light
they are a part of one another
they hold the same message
they have the same intention
place your hand on your heart and whisper
I love you
give yourself permission to be in all the places you are
without judgment or criticism
or frustration
let the process of life unfold as it is
change nothing of it
except for the amount of love you give to yourself
in both times of great joy and great unrest